Monday, February 13, 2012

My Dearest

    I love "old school" vocabulary. The adjective dearest is lovely, and what a smitten being would have referred to 'the one' as. I gather this from googling, yes googling, letters from WW1. It's better than my dear, my love, honey, sweetie pie, babe, you name it. Just read below: 
dear 1 
adj. dear·erdear·est
1.
a. Loved and cherished: my dearest friend.
b. Greatly valued; precious: lost everything dear to them.
2. Highly esteemed or regarded. Used in direct address, especially in salutations: Dear Lee Dawson.
3.
a. High-priced; expensive.
b. Charging high prices.
4. Earnest; ardent: "This good man was a dear lover and constant practicer of angling"(Izaak Walton).
5. Obsolete Noble; worthy.
6. Heartfelt: It is my dearest wish.
n.
1. One that is greatly loved.
2. An endearing, lovable, or kind person.
adv.
1. With fondness; affectionately.
2. At a high cost: sold their wares dear. 


    I consider Charlie as my dearest, fo shizzle! ;) But it's as though I am having to convince myself of this lately. I know it, but what evidence do I have? For so long I have relied on daily encounters with my husband to reaffirm my love and affection for him to definitely consider him as my dearest. What am I counting on now? Cut off, loud (children) background noise, delayed, frozen monster face Skype calls. I feel so spoiled to say this, but although we get to communicate almost daily, it is frustrating, on the surface, two separate people type of communication. I don't know my husband right now and that feels unnatural, a struggle for sure. This could really pull two lovers apart. A sort of giving up. Oh, but I know my dearest, and I know why I love him. I know who he is. And what feels even more amazing is that he knows me, better than anyone. 

   I recently had someone remind me of Charlie's faults, weaknesses, bad-side, as we all have. While I knew what was being spoken was in many ways true, it was not right. Not right for me, the wife trying to be more strong and supportive than ever. I was being challenged with such a mind game. All I know is, I must continue to think the world of my husband, think he is amazing, and never lose sight of his strengths, the reasons why I want to call him dearest. 

Short and very sweet. My thoughts for now. 

2 comments:

  1. Carrie- I have found that almost any time someone is pointing out your flaws (or your husband's or children's), it is usually because they feel insecure about themselves, their husband, or their children. I am sure you already know this, but keep that tucked away. I know it too and I have to remind myself from time to time, as well.

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