My Old Self, Almost

     I can just smile. This week, I feel "Carrie" emerging again and I love it. Perhaps many people live life being so out of touch with themselves, that they don't even realize how chaotic life is not being in tune with their own soul. And I'm quite sure that people just accept their chaos, their out-of-touchness. I think that is scary. It's as though they give up on growing and seeking more truths and freedoms about themselves and others and life. 

     The reason I'm feeling myself come alive again is because Im beginning to breath again! I'm not kidding. I realize to some it might sound corny, but that's truly what it is. Im not preparing to lose my husband anymore. He's coming now in less than 24 hours. My wall that's been protecting my heart and emotions is coming down. I know when Charlie embraces me, this sense of a real breath will be even one hundred times as deep, as clear.

     With this freedom though, I am holding on a little reserved as I know challenges will arise. While our family will be one again, it won't be the same as before. We'll we jumping back on our family path, but with a whole lot of new, and that's a little scary for anyone. I just pray for patience and love and understanding. 

     Life is wonderful!